Wednesday, 20 May 2009

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  The Stress That Did Me Wrong

  I'm sure we all know that. I just wanted to "stress" that fact.

  Yesterday, stress attacks hit me and my cousin, May. She was rushed to the hospital after about a week's time of illness. She's been vomitting like crazy! Fever is non-stop and irregular. She couldn't stand and her limbs were weak. Muscles ache like hell. It may sound like she's just fine and it's a normal feverish situation. The thing is, she's 3 months pregnant.

  

  Pregnant women are prohibited from taking any medications as they may cause abnormalities in the labor or in the child itself. My other elder cousin Elaine took some prescribed drugs during pregnancy. Sad that her child now has some brain defects ... I dunno what the exact condition is though. I'm afraid May's child might have the same effect. She's currently confined now and the baby was on the brink of death had she not confined herself in the hospital. I found out that she's bleeding non-stop too. This almost caused the child's life.

  Her husband was sharing with my mom that she's been stressed. She stands as somewhat the breadwinner in her family too. She has a dependent brother who's still in school and an elder brother who also has his own family now. Her mom and dad are both retirees and are expecting support from her. The pregnancy troubled her too much. She's just moved out from her long-term work from another center due to management issues and now, she's in a new company but not yet regularized. The fear of having her current condition affecting her status and tenure there adds up to the stress. And thinking that she's a newbie w/o further benefits, she has low hopes in supporting her family and her own family now with the kid and the hubby. I just hope and pray that the fetus stays put in her womb though she's heavily stressed out ...

  

  To the same extent, I had my shares of yesterday's mayhem. I had a lot of stuff scheduled and items to work on my plate, with additional stuff brought in realtime. I've stayed long enough in the office, not noticing I haven't eaten lunch and the continuous interview pool was there (for a class that we are starting next week for the account I support). I was stressed out and pressed for time, and probably coupled with hunger, plus the fact that I just drank iced tea, made me palpitate. I couldn't even stand and I'm just grateful that my colleagues were there, concerned about me though that couldn't solve my case. I took in 2x therabloc than needed. It made me weak. I had a hard time breathing. My heartbeat was sooo fast and irregular. I was scared. Feels like my insides were twitching. The hard pounding and heavy breathing made me look terribly ill yesterday and that caused me stay 3+ hours resting on my cube. I don't want that happening again ... while I am aware I have that condition since 2006, I've been living a normaly life now at least. I do hope I can surpass this challenge.

  I probably need to be extra careful but I just couldn't escape worrying about what is to happen. There are a lot of things troubling my mind right now. Family needs ... pressure ... work stress ... similar to my cousing, I stand as head of the family and having a lot of people depend on you makes the burden heavier. And not only do I support my immediate family members, we have other relatives dependent on my financial support. Our culture is different here ... we couldn't just let them be responsible coz the moment I personally think of that, I think twice seeing that they will suffer if I couldn't provide. I couldn't think straight ... God help me ...

  Chai

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